after a day of feeling unwell, here comes the first day of February.
as the month of Love starts, my day wasn't that bad but also not a good one.
bad news came to at the beginning of the day when my teacher(major) distributed our test papers.
i don't have the guts to expect for a high grade but i was devastated as i got my exam sheet.
OW MAI GOSH! my score is very very very very low... i only got 11 out of 50 and that's a bullsh*t..
of course it's all my fault kasi nga inuna ko pa ang tulog kaysa kunting pagbasa ng libro, ayan tuloy lugmok ang score.. what a jerk!
and before sir gave the sheets, he told as that even though the exam was easy yet majority of us got a low grade. and he also said "Unfortunately, one of you has a grade below 3.0 because you got low score in our long exams and midterm and you always absent and miss seat-works and assignments. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE".
i was struck by that phrase 'cause i know he was referring to me... ohh! and that made my day worst..
after that was my 1hr and 30mins vacant, tulalang-tulala pa rin ako sa nafeel ko.
para talagang nabagsakan ako ng isang building. it seems na guguho na ang mundo ko.
and it made me think to do the worst thing (suicide)
yes i am dull in class, but i'm not that dull to commit suicide for that matter of events.
pagkatapos nu'n, wala na akong gana pumasok kaya lang naisip ko na hindi naman lahat ng subjects ay hindi masaya. meron naman na happy ako kapag pumapasok ako just like my English subject.
hindi ko rin alam kung bakit hindi ako nahihiya kapag english time.
may confidence kasi ako pag.english na, ewan ko nga lang kung bakit.
baka dahil sa front row ako kaya hindi ako nahihiya. tapos kapag mag-orals ay hindi naman maririnig ng mga kaklase.
'till then.. this has been your writer (maica) *_*
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